K i t t y S y s t e m

2008-11-03T18:36:00.003+08:00

i've moved to http://www.myriadofstars.wordpress.com
you are all invited. no, only those who have a good heart!
& don't forget to relink me!

2008-10-23T09:23:00.004+08:00

life is so unfair. i've decided to change my url.
which i will reveal it soon.
if you're smart enough, you can go figure out my new url.
but for now, you can add me in msn or
email me at myriad.of.stars@hotmail.com

toodles~

2008-10-21T19:39:00.005+08:00

finally i've turn 18 today.
the paper today really sucks.

i wanna thank these people for the wishes.
via sms, calls, in-person, friendster,
myspace, tagboard. thankQ.
Grandma.
Mom.
Baby. (so sad you're not here with me)
Dad and his wife (my step-mum)
Azillah.
Zaini.
Sandy.
Liping.
Atika.
Saffiee.
Putri.
Sin yi.
Nazirah.
Zul.
Yana.
Yusri.
Alif.
Khairin.
Hilmi.
IdahC.
Skarlet.
Shaq.
Pudin.

Sorry if i've missed out anyone.

thanks a lot. :DDDD
your wishes means a lot to me.

now, i shall hit the books.
4 more papers to go.

2008-10-14T12:42:00.004+08:00

exactly in a weeks time, i shall turn 18.
not a day to anticipate for.
i'll be celebrating in the exam halls cracking my brain.
how tragic.

blog will not be updated till the end of the last paper.
i shall go on a hiatus for now.
take care people.

2008-10-08T13:06:00.002+08:00

bday coming in like 13 days time.
dont forget your present okay!

lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol lol

2008-10-05T17:44:00.003+08:00

15 more days to the first paper.
16 more day to my 18th bday.

im really stressed out now.
there's pimples fest on my face.
a big fat one on my cheek. gah! i hate pimple.
so yeah, first paper is coming up real soon.
hopefully, i'll be prepared by then. hopefully.

and then the next day will be my 18th bday.
i've 2 paper on that day. hmmp.
what a day to celebrate my 18th bday.
nvm, doesnt really matter.
exams are much more impt.
shall celebrate at the end of month.

for now, i shall be on hiatus.
have a good day people.
and and wish me luck!

2008-10-02T00:03:00.007+08:00

yesterday -
the whole plan of playing firecrackers was ruin due to the bad weather.
we were stranded for like 3 hrs?
while wating for the 'pengatin' - atikathi to join us,
wan tried to make a rocket out of the sparklers.
the sound of the explosion was damn loud.
a few hours later, atikathi joined us.
they bought loads of finger food from geylang.
we then each make our own rocket.
wan's rocket was the most 'memekak' and it really flew.
after that the most tragic thing happen to me and wan.
haiz. wont elaborate on this.

today - woke up quite early. about 10am. & went out at 1pm.
we went to datuk's place by bus. quite a long journey.
from jurong to potong pasir. meet the cousins of my dad's side.
dad has a lot of siblings and therefore i got loads of green packets there.
i didnt get to meet my close cousins of mum's side.
only the twin and their brother. hmmp.

im so lazy to type, so let the picture do the talking.

i was contemplating whether i should tie my hair or not. lol

ayu, auntie, me and my brothers.

duit rayerrr. wooohoo. :DDD

my mum. i love my mummy. :DD

tmrw, back to mugging. bah!

2008-09-30T14:52:00.002+08:00

im exhausted. just finished ironing the bed sheet.
a day more to hari raya and i
cant wait to go to datuk's place and do some collection. haha.

shall play firecracker with bf tonight after tuition. yeay.

wanna wish all muslims, selamat menyambut hari raya.
kalau terkasar bahasa, termengumpat, tersepak, terpukul,
saya minta maaf. maafkan ye? :DDDDD

let's get this done and over with. i still need to prepare for my exams!!!!

2008-09-28T14:59:00.003+08:00

friday - went to a nearby saloon to get my hair dyed.
wasnt an obvious colour but i was quite satisfied with the service. (:
bf meet me for awhile after he booked out from camp.
i didnt went for tuition that day as i've forgotten to bring my ezlink card.
the bus stop was like a 10 minutes walk from my house.
i was shagged when i returned back home. dumb_bear btol.

saturday - made cookies again with mum.
then cousins came over my house to break fast together.
mum invited bf to come over but he was too shy. -.-""
meet bf at 8plus to celebrate our 17th month anniversarry.
happy 17th months together baby. ily.

shall hit the town tmrw for a last minute shopping!
yeay 2 more days to raya. but i cant feel the excitement. how ah?

2008-09-23T14:46:00.002+08:00

my personal favourite picture .................

2008-09-22T15:22:00.003+08:00

Saturday
made cookies with mum in the morning.
then off to meet bf to break fast at clementi.
i cant remember what's the name of the stall.
i reckon its the famous prata shop? lol.
the food was quite alright. :DD
bf was kindda tired so we went to catch a movie at vivocity.
after contemplating on which movie to watch,
we end up watching disaster movie.

a movie which is not worth the money to watch.
what a corny/lame show. -.-"
the show doesnt have a storyline either.
as the show ends pretty early, we then went to keppel bay.
i dont know why but i was feeling a little cranky that night.
and we end up having a (small/huge?) fight.
as usual, eventhough it's my fault i'll always kept quite -
not knowing what to say. i just dont know how to step up
and say sorry. im such a disgrace. haiz.
but thank god i have a forgiving bf.
bf had already forgiven me & i shall promise to myself,
not to do it again.

i love you bby.

Sunday
meet up early with putri and rusydi. atika was late.
we went to town to do some shopping.
i was searching for heels but none caught my attention.
putri end up buying mango bag instead of shoes. -.-"
i was very "selekeh" that day. had a bad hair day as usual.
it's very tiring to go on a retail therapy on a fasting day.
we went to meet the rest at bugis. psab, eya and feelza.
as we were there (cafe le caire) quite early,
we played murderer and charade.
it was fun! the place were filled with our laughters. :DD
the chicken was ubber delicious! yum yum.
we then had sheesha. they checked our ids
and i wasnt allowed to smoke sheesha.
hahaha! just as i thought. sob sob.
the bill was $129+ and we split equally. so its $18 per head.
the price was quite reasonable lah actually.
we then headed back to town to chill and played charade.
at the end of the day i was so shagged but still i had fun!
and now im missing my bf so badly. hmmph.

what a long, chunky post. pictures is still with putri punjabi.

2008-09-19T16:00:00.002+08:00

i cant meet my bf today. he got guard duty.
im very sad. very very very very sadddddd.....

i want to hug you now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-15T19:25:00.003+08:00

pardon me for the vulgarities used in the previous post. but i really mean it.
i wish i could erase my past completely. if i could, i would.

on a happier note, i cant wait for the buka outing at arab st this sunday!
cant wait to meet the girls and my one and only guy friend, rusydi.
its been a long time since i met them! ((:

and yes, it's been a week since i last smoke cigarettes. shall stop smoking from now on.
putri, you should quit too okay!

alright boonlayians, remember Mrs Sim?
"speeeed-of-reeaaashen"

call me soon sayang, i miss you.

2008-09-14T18:18:00.003+08:00

i fucking hate my past.
because of you people, i cant have a nice, decent past.

i hate you fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my whole life is ruin!

2008-09-09T14:58:00.001+08:00

shall do a quick post before i start studying.
the boy had already went to serve Ns.
and that means i can only meet him on weekends.
i cried when he held me real tight yesterday.
and im about to cry as im typing this.
im miss you already. how to survive for another 2 years?
this is going to be another obstacle that we have to face.
whatever it is im going to stick by you okay. promise!

and you're turning 20 tmrw. happy bday sayang.
sorry for not celebrating you're bday this year.
shall celebrate your bday when i have lots of moolahs ok.
i love you so much! i cant wait to meet you on friday botak!

on a random note, i have 2 zits on my left cheek.
and its such an irritant. i hate you. lol

shall hit the books now!

2008-09-07T16:27:00.003+08:00

Greetings earthlings!
yesterday was well-spent(is there such word?) with bf.
we dine in at Changing Appetite to break fast.
we both ordered Fish & Chips and in the end, it went to waste.
but the mudpie is highly recommended. (: ubber delicious.
we then bought tickets to watch Wall-e.
its a cute movie. i rate it 4 out 5 popcorns.
sorry no pictures taken! i had a bad hair day.

shall accompany bf to Mustaffa Centre later in the night to buy his toiletries for Ns.
bf is going to be bald today. cant wait to see how he look like!

2 more days to solitude. im gonna miss you. i promise i'll be good ok! love you.

2008-09-05T16:28:00.005+08:00

me, mum and brother webcam-whoring.
why is it not clear eh?

so yesterday went Geylang with boyf in search for a baju kurung.
and finally settled down with a black kebaya.
tho it cost me a bomb, im quite satisfied with the design.
mum gave me $xxx and im left with $30 bucks now for raya expenditure.
& im left with $xx to last till the end of this month. im broke.
nevertheless, we bought lots of finger food at the bazaar.
too much till we cant finish it. *jahat mata*

and thank god, grandma doesnt merajok with me anymore.
everything's back to normal now. :DDDDDD

get well soon ok bf! i dont want u to lose weight.
must be always healthy ok. i love you.

oh yeah, i've received some of the pictures taken on Sunday.
but i cant find it in my sharing folders. how uh sinyi?

2008-09-01T17:44:00.002+08:00

i think im suffering from depression.
googled on the internet to search for such symptoms.
and i found this.

Symptoms of depression

Signs and symptoms of depression (or a depressive episode) can include:

Lasting sad, anxious or empty mood
Feelings of hopelessness or pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, or helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in activities once enjoyed, including sex
Decreased energy, a feeling of fatigue or being 'slowed down'
Difficulties in concentrating, remembering things or in making decisions
Restlessness or irritability
Sleeping to much, or not able to sleep
Changes in appetite and weight loss or gain
Chronic pain or other symptoms that are not caused by physical illness or injury
Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempt

most of it are what im facing right now. i need help, like seriously.

2008-08-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

Saturday
our original plan was to go to town. but it was cancelled.
due to my clumsiness. i broke boyf's side mirror. im sorry.
we end up eating at al ameen. im getting fattttter!!! but i love you bf.

Sunday
i got so stress up at home cause someone's been showing tantrum at me.
after finishing a few chapters of chemistry, i went out to meet atika & sin yi.
there were at vivo. taking pictures with sin yi's new dslr. chey.
then i suggested keppel bay. they agreed and we bought some snacks to go along.
we had so much fun taking pictures and doing stupid pose.
i look really ugly in pictures. i dont know why. maybe because im ugly :DD
we went separate places then. i'll upload the pictures once i've receive them.

i cant wait to fast tmrw! time to lose weight people! (:

2008-08-24T20:45:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello hello. sorry for the lack of updates.

been refraining myself from surfing the net.

and yeah, its been days since i last online. horray for me!
and as for my oral, i think i did it badly.

i swore i was feeling nervous at that very moment.

my hands were trembling and my mind went blank.

so much for the practices i had before that.

and when i got back home, i was shag and decided to take a short nap.

but ironically, i couldnt get to sleep cause i was thinking about my oral.

how i wish i could turn back time. im such a disgrace.

it rains non-stop yesterday. our whole plan was kind of ruin.

nevertheless, me & wan went to gorge st. to catch the fireworks.

only the smaller ones can be seen from there.

the bigger ones were block by a building. how sad.

3 more days to our anniversarry. 16 more days to solitude.

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oh yeah, the pictures will be up soon. as soon as i could find my scanner cable.

sorry for the delay babes! daaaa~

2008-08-19T14:46:00.003+08:00

thought of going to the gym with atika yesterday.
but we both woke up late. have to cancel the plan then.

oral's coming up this friday. where the hell is yuhua sec? *clueless*

on a random note, pimples are starting to grow on my face.
is it because of the weather? or the make up i use?
or or or the 'make-up artiste' that put on the make-up for me?
cause they re-use the make-up brushes.
whatever the reason, its okay. cause i still look ugleh. ((:

exactly in 3 weeks time, boyf is going to serve NS. damn.
im not yet prepareddddd! how?

should i post up the pictures of the make-over shots?
should i? or should i not? hmm.
you guys decide for me okay.

2008-08-17T02:13:00.002+08:00

went over to putty's place yesterday to study.
atika was distracted by i-dont-know-what.
she was singing, drawing at putty's notes.
such an irritant. heh. just kidding.
it was productive for me. manage to store in some knowledge.
yeayness for me!

went to bugis with bf to take the pictures.
the editing sucks. i bet i can edit much much better!
no, even a 10 year old kid can edit much better.
such a daylight robbery. dammit.

im sorry. im truly sorry.
i think i need to go for an anger management therapy. chao!

2008-08-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

First and foremost, i wanna wish happy 18th bday to Atika.
Good luck in your future endeavour!
Dont waste your $$ on food ok. Save up and buy your dream phone!

And not forgetting happy bday to the August babies:
Liping (Louise)
Grandmother
Liping (Sin yi's friend)
Azillah (Cousin)
Alif(Cousin)

Yesterday went over to Pasir Ris to meet the boy.
He was feeling unwell so i decided to meet him at his place.
He really lose a lot of weight. It hurts me to see you in pain.
Sorry for not being a good gf.
But i promise i'll be more understanding this time. ily, k.

Less than a month, bf gg to serve Ns.
2 more months to O's. DANNGGG!
Time flew so fast.

Oh yeah, dont forget to do the survey!
thanks a million.

2008-08-12T01:07:00.005+08:00

greetings human beings.
today was awesome. for the first time in 'how-many-donkey-years',
boyfriend took me on a cable car ride.
the scenery was damn beautiful.
to add on to the romantic scene was the sunset.
next time we go for sky dinning k darling. (if we have enough moolahs. heehee)
we then head down to keppel bay after having our dinner.

i had so much fun today luh bby.
you're willing to take me out eventhough you're sick.
sorry for being a bad gf. get well soon k bby.
how am i going to survive when you're serving for your NS.
i am still not emotionally & mentally prepared for this.
im going to miss you terribly.

pictures, pictures!

2008-08-11T15:35:00.004+08:00

i wanna share with you guys how i ugly i look back then!

baby photo!

me, albo, putri. [2oo4]
the very first time i went to club. lol.

atika, me, putri [2oo5]

twins? [2oo5]

neoprints is a must to take!
if i could pawn all my neo-pictures, i would be rich by now.
me, sin yi. [2oo5]

all the act cute poses! dang. [2oo5]

one of the pictures i like. [2oo5]

sch sports day. [2005]

sentosa. [2005]

afiqa, me, atika, azilla. [2004]
watch fireworks i guess.

me [2004]
short hair. lalalala~

un-skilled edits. [2004]

kental seh! [2006]

[2006]

me & atika, ij studio [2006]

me & my princesses. [2006]

me & my mickey mouse pants! so kental. [2006]

atika, me, rusydi.
sleepover at atika's. a day before gradnight! [2006]

atika dyeing her hair! [2006]

gradnight! [2006]

unskilled edits. [2006]

me, atikus [2006]

me, rusydi @ cash studio. [2oo6]

me, putri @ cash studio [2oo6]

me, sin yi @ pm [2oo7]

me [2oo7]

i look so minah!!! eeeeee. [2oo7]

working at cineileisure. [2oo7]

and that's when i meet my pretty boyfriend.
who turns out to be my cousin whom i met last 7 years!

me and boyfriend. [2007]

as you can see i have a few friends.
they are there when im in need.
i love you guys!

and baby, we've been thru all the hardships together.
& i wouldnt wanna let you go!

bombastic love, so fantastic.
where im completely yours & you are mine.
hence it gonna be exactly like in the movie,
where we fall in love for the first time.

2008-08-09T13:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with boyfriend to bugis.
Just wanna see the outcome of the shoots.
The moment of truth! And it turns out as bad as what i expected.
There's a lot of 'mata-kuyu" shots taken. I had a foul mood then.
Sorry atika, sin yi & friends for not talking to you guys.
Was pretty upset with the photos.
But boyfriend was there to cheer me up without failing.

We went to watch The Love Guru after taking our early dinner.
It was pretty hilarious but quite lame. nevertheless, i enjoyed it very much.

Thanks baby, for everything. You're the perfect gift i've ever wished for.

Oh yeah, happy 43th bday Singapore!

2008-08-04T22:50:00.004+08:00

Monday, 4th August
What a dreadful day. The make-over sessions just suck.
The service, the choice of clothes, the make-up just suck big time.
I look horrible. The make-up just make me look like ~~Chinese opera~~ a Minah.
Especially those eyebrows. I wasnt really satisfied.
What more, Sinyi have to hurry back home. I didnt even take a look at my shots.

I wanna weep so badly right now.

Tuesday, 5th August
I woke up quite early today with the urge to study. & i did.
Well, i must say that i was really into it. I find it quite amusing.
Arina was supposed to meet me at the library. But she was late!
The library was damn packed. Cant even find a decent place to sit.
At last we studied at Jurong Point's Mc.
After which we went to tuition together. ((:

I cried myself to sleep..............

2008-08-02T16:54:00.003+08:00

oh oh! i broke my mum favourite vase.
this twinge of guilt hasnt left since then.
she would have literally hurt my ears with her words.
to add salt to the wound, i took her ATM card.
without noticing, she went out of the house to take her driving lessons.
damn, i'll be so dead by the time she comes home.

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NOT!!
im a good daughter ok. wont do such things!
im so bored. bored to tears. hmmmp.

pictures taken yesterday where we ate and slack at the carpark instead of jogging. heh.

2008-08-01T13:00:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates.
been unwell for the last few days.
probably because of the dreadful weather.
but i feel so much better now. (:
yipee! i'll be going for a jog later at night with boyf.
and same goes for tmrw.

i bought a dress online. sigh, impulse, impulse!
and boyf bought himself a t-shirt online too.

that's all for now. have to study now! toodles~

2008-07-27T15:51:00.004+08:00

Caution, massive pictures ahead!

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oh yeah, i've resized it. bah!

baby and his friends.

the pretty babes. exclude me.

happy 15th anniversarry!

the groom.

congrats to the newly weds!

my family with my step-mum and the newly weds.

my retarded brothers.

in dad's car. auntie step malu!

chocolate fondue!

mini fair.

the bride.

candid photos!

candid again!

Louise staff!

Sandy showing off her new watch!

our drinks.

2008-07-26T01:54:00.000+08:00

here i go, with much enthusiasm.
i can say that my weekend are packed with exciting events.

went out with ex Louise staff today.
its been a long while since i met them. i miss you guys so much!
had our dinner at v8 bugis junction.
its one of the restaurant i highly recommend.
the ambience, the service are all great.
the foods are also quite affordable.
i give it a two thumbs up! (:

we gave sandy a surprise bday present too.
but too bad, she wouldnt wanna wear it.
on a lighter note, we asked her to choose another present.
and so we went to a watch shop.
after much contemplating on which design to choose,
she finally decided on DKNY silver watch.
you're so fickle minded lah sandy.

lastly, we went to tcc to sit down and chat.
i took some candid pictures, i like. haha. :D
meet up soon pretty babes! bern as well, of course.

tomorrow gonna attend kak norfa's wedding.
and probably meet my sayang to celebrate our anniversary.
we're turning 15 months! yeay! clapx3
actually its on sunday but he's likely to be working on that day.
so have to bring it forward. :D
pictures soon okeh. lazy to upload.

tooodles.

2008-07-22T02:04:00.003+08:00

6 button high waist skirt
Measurements: Size M 14" Across 17" Down (Fits UK6-10)
Price: $25 (usual price $28)
it was kindda loose on me. so im selling it away.
email me at myriad.of.stars@hotmail.com

Mary jane bare-back halter neck
Free size (S/M) letting go at $22 shipped.
condition:10/10
interested buyers, do mail me at myriad.of.stars@hotmail.com

im letting this go @ $22. free postage yaw!
only tried once and it didnt suits me.
if you're interested, mail me @ myriad.of.stars@hotmail.com
condition:10/10

2008-07-17T16:31:00.004+08:00

17 july o8
went to Sentosa to suntan. i was kindda excited the day before.
its been a long while since i went to tha beach.
i thought there's gonna be less people there
but i was wrong indeed. the place was packed with youth!
was wondering if there's any public holiday yesterday. but no.
its just an ordinary wednesday!
so went to all the way to tanjong beach.
it was a great weather to suntan. suntan for 2hrs, i think.
then we went for a swim. ((;

went over to vivocity to take an early dinner.
went to Earl's Swensen. the food was great but sorry baby,
my stomach cant digest that much food. im really sorry.

but i still love you baby. (:

2008-07-11T01:30:00.004+08:00

Im having a mood swing today.
I got upset in relation to anything.
Even the slightest things can annoy me.
I can’t seem to be dead to the world (sleep).
Im sorry to those whom i had might avenge my anger on.
I don’t know why but when im upset,
i have this behaviour of wanting to buy something.
So, i window-shopped at some sales journal.
And i end up ordering some tops and dresses.
But its not yet confirmed if the stocks are still available.
Considering that im jobless,
probably i should just buy one of those aforementioned.
I should stop this way of behaving!
But i cant, blame on my temptations!
But i guess its natural for girls to feel this way.

& thanks to shaq for some words which i cant seem to translate in english.

eric's song is so soothing. makes me feel calm.
its a must to listen to his voice when im online!

my thighs are getting fatter. i seriously need to exercise.
but im just plain lazy to run. i want to dance!
slap me for being so random.
SLAAAPPPPP-ME-REAAAAL-HARDDDDDD!

2008-07-08T16:20:00.002+08:00

Went out to study with Rusydi yesterday.

There’s so many youngsters (aged 13-16) using laptops nowadays. Wow.
Rusydi used my laptop to do his testimonial which due today.
Such a last minute work. Tsk tsk.
Went home then to watch taking 5 on kc.
All i can say is that Eric Dill look dashing.
Especially when he sang a song in acoustic version.
I should take Kyle out of my list replace Eric instead.
dreammmmmmmmmmmmmm onnnnnnnnnnnn!!!

Then went out again to meet boyf.
Although i was disappointed at first,
you really know how to make my day.
Thank you. I love you so much.
Watched hancock at jp. It was an awesome show.
The story line was kindda good. I give a it two thumbs up!

Kidnap my heart. Take me with you
Kidnap my heart. Make my dreams come true

2008-07-05T07:45:00.006+08:00

do you know that very soon the world is gg to end?
have you ever notice those weird things that's been happening?
recently in l.a, a guy gave birth to a baby girl.
oh my. how could a guy possibly be pregnant?
in that case, in future gays can have babies!
let us repent to the god above us. (sounds insert word)

deleted the previous issue due to some reasons.
dont wanna get myself into trouble !

somehow i cant get to sleep this morning.
i was awake at 5am and cant get back to sleep.
probably because of the weather nowadays.
can you imagine, i can even sweat tho the fan was at its full blast.
when is it going to rain? oh no, dont rain yet.
i wanna suntan first. haha!

and so i made pancakes today!
taste so good and its better than mcds.
meet the boy later in the afternoon.
we went to vivocity with the hopes that we cld watch hancock.
but the queue was longer that i thought.
even the tickets were selling fast.
but i enjoyed my day with you baby.
you look awesome today. love you so much!

2008-07-01T13:59:00.005+08:00

yesterday, i spend my daytime studying at home.
although at one part i almost fell asleep.
my brain cells are dead. they cant function properly.
and the solution to it is exercise!
therefore me and bf went for a night jogging at pandan reservoir
it was raining heavily at first but luckily it stops when we reached.
ran approximately 2km to and fro.
i was damn shagged but it doesnt keep me from stopping.
and... i was just kidding. i can barely run consistently throughout that 2km run.
and so i brisk walk most of the time. bf was consistent. power uh lu.
he wanna be fit before he went to NS. goodluck bf!
we'll be going for a jog again on saturday. ((:

i have a secret to tell! we went mcd after jogging! hehehe.

2008-06-27T14:10:00.000+08:00

went out with the girlfriends yesterday.
its been a long while since we went out together!
went over to town and just window shopped. i had fun ! (:

and today me & baby celebrate our 14 month together.
i love you so much shugar shugar! cant wait to meet you later!

say say i wakida, baby. lolol.

2008-06-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

dear b.s, i've got no mood today. everything seems to be a mess.
sometimes, i just feel like running away from home.
to me the home was just a shelter.
other than that, i need to fork out my own $.
tuition fees, hp bill, o level fees = My own pocket $.
and every month i just get a tiny weeny sum of $ from dad.
im just 17 years old and i alr have some burdens.
i thought i could concentrate on my o's for now without having the need to work.
but it seems like my xxxx couldnt seems to understand.
dont wish to elaborate more. i just want to die so badly right now.

2008-06-24T01:02:00.001+08:00

now i know who the hell is atika alba.
jgn nk step jessica alba k. *kening naik turon* alam lay btol!
i seriously, desperately need a job right now!
cause im bored at home doing nothing.

anyway, you guys should watch zohan.
adam sandler is just so crazy! a hilarious show i should say.
i give it a thumbs up. DISCO DISCO!

i miss you boyfriend. 3 more day~

2008-06-22T19:55:00.004+08:00

some overdue pictures! guys, you've been missed!
and i look fugly in those pictures.

someone bubblesaur today. *kening naik turon*

and im bored bored bored bored!

2008-06-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

im back after a few centuries on hiatus. finally i got myself a broadband.
life have never been good for me. i quitted my recent job as it's so tiring.
and the hours is not flexible at all. tell me how am i suppose to study for my o's.
the job requirements are pretty easy, all we need to do was to serve
and fold the clothes when there's no customer.
but i've decided to find a better job where i can balance both my study and work time.
me and boyfriend are doing pretty well now
except for that we've been thru alot of funny/silly things recently.
i still love you boyfriend.

and i miss louise badly!!!!!!

2008-06-11T20:39:00.002+08:00

and so, im jobless. louise have closed. sadded.
i gonna miss all of you guys! sandy, liping, cy, bern and louise!!
went for an interview at giordano just now.
hopefully i get the job! pray with me people.
cant wait for the farewell dinner this friday.

love you babyyyy no matter what. muackkkkks!
you are the best! (((:

2008-06-06T11:58:00.002+08:00

dear b.s, i went for a job interview yesterday.
i got the promoter job. i dont know if im really interested.
or should i just work at atika's place? its 11339247x nearer to my house!

i dont know! i dont know! i dont know! how? how? how?

but anyway, rusydi agreed to acc me for the interview at clarke quay.
sin yi bubblesaur uh. she last min dont wanna acc me. hmmmmph.
afterwhich, we went to chill at starbucks while waiting for atiko.
had fun talking about our past. ((:
and we saw charmender (how to spell?) in the mrt. haha.
home sweet home then.

and im sorry baby......

2008-06-03T11:59:00.002+08:00

met baby after work yesterday. ((:
went to tamp mall to look for sony ericsson's outlet.
but to no avail. even at century square. hmmm.
kental ah tamp and pasir ris. k sorry!
afterwhich, went to e-hub to watch sex & the city with baby's friends.
im barely legal to watch a M18 rated show.
but heyyyy, i got in just like that without showing my ic. how lucky.
overall the show was okay. but too long-winded.
labels or love? love, i choose you. cause i cant afford to have you, label. >.<

i woke up late today. i dont know why my alarm doesnt ring.
i thought i would be late, but infact i was 15 min early.
have to cancel my appointment today as i have tuition later on.
okay, now im bored to death. cyberworld, entertain me.
dont be a bitch pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

i love you baby.........

2008-05-30T17:17:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since i last posted an entry.
so probably you'd be asking, how's life been treating me so far?
i say, life getting more suckier each passing day!
i've moved to the new area already.
& guess what? i can see a bunch of minah&matrep without failing.
the area was surrounded by m&ms.

me & baby turned 13mths on tuesday.
both of us didnt realized that it was our anniversarry.
but luckily, we already planned what we're gonna do on that day.

how's my revision going? sucks. hadnt been revising!
gonna start soon after the mess in my new house is cleared.
5 more mths to go. damnnnn.

2008-05-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

found these pictures while browsing on my picture folder.
quite an old picture where we just started out dating!
a year had passed. time flew so fast.
remember when we first met baby?
and we found out that we're related?
hee. i still remember what you wore on that very day!
you're the best lah baby.
no regrets meeting of meeting you.
and soon we're turning 13 months! i love you boncet!

2008-05-20T16:31:00.005+08:00

i've been tag by the lovely, liping.

A) people who have been tagged must write their questions on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) tag 4 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
weep all night.

#2 if you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
to be a successful career women.

#3 what will dream wedding be like?
anything, so long as i look great on my wedding gown.

#4 what is your dream home like?
i always wanted to have a big house where there's elevator going up straight to my room.
jacuzzi s, a big swimming pool, my own club at my house. okay, dream on.

#5 what's your ideal lover like?
i've found the perfect one. (:

#6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
i guess its both. riduan, you love me?

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
wait for him to finish ns, like 2 years. then wait for him to finish sch, another 2 years?

#8 if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
he knows i like and love him. <3<3 size="1">shhh. riduan, you know right?)

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yeah, and it a secret!!

#10 what do you want most in life?
earn big bucks in future jobs.

#11 is being tagged fun?
hmm. its like a survey of our life. so, idk what to say.

#12 how do you see yourself in 10 years time?
in 10 years time, i'll be 28. by the time, i'll be married with 2 kids. living life to the fullest.

#13 who are currently the most important people to you?
baby, family, close friends.

#14 what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
she's a nice person. a hello kitty fanatic! you gotta see her splurge her money on hello kitty stuff.
an easy going person i can say. she likes to bring snacks to work. haha.

#15 would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
i guess i'll be married but poor. at least there's someone stick right thru me when im poor.
money cant buy anything. money cant buy love for instance.

#16 What's the first thing you do every morning?
wake up and check for baby's long msgs.

#17 Would you give in a relationship?
hahahaha. im an egoistic person. so ask him.

#18 if you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
i pick my hunney baby smelly monkey a.k.a riduaaaannnnnnnnnnnnn boncet.

#19 what type of friends do you like?
outgoing. be there when i need them.

#20 if you played a prank on someone, & he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
definitely be the highlight of the day.

4 person being tag by me : atika, putty, sin yi, shaq

so longggg, mofos!

2008-05-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

today's post would be complaints bout self.
so, if you're not interested or about to puke please by all means,
click the x button on your top right hand corner.

oh my, look at that fat arms. it is so obscene. disgusting ey?
i just wished that i could just chop that extra meat off.
been wondering what's my weight now. please please be a mere 45 kg.
i dont wanna be fat/obese. i just want to be slim and tall.
but i dont think my wish would be fulfill.
cause the fact is that, i cant grow taller anymore. sobbbbb.
im 1.57cm short, not tall but short.

next is my breast. i know girls want to have a big breast.
its like an assets to them used for male attractions.
but for me, it just look pretty ugly. & i hate guys looking at my breast.
feel like going up to them and dig out their filthy eyes.
i wish i could donate some of my breast meat to those girls
whom breast look like a mosquito bite. hehehehehhe. >.<

last but not least, i was wondering why i look like a
bapok (transvestite, dont know if it's the right spelling) when i smile flashing off my teeth? lol.

i miss you baby, honey, smelly, monkey! you are my soniaaa.........

2008-05-11T16:40:00.003+08:00

met my baby at town ytd. oh god, i missed him so much.
it's like the first time i met him.
my heart was pumping, the moment i saw him.
he look awesome. (:

we went to take our dinner then. he suggested fish & co's.
so, fish and co's it is. as usual, i couldnt ate the whole thing.
after which, we booked tickets to watch, what happens in vegas.
the show was effing great! i give it a 4.5 out of 5 stars.
but lido was not a suitable place to watch comedy
movies tho the theater was gigantic.
it is because when there's a funny part, the whole
theater roared with laughter for like 5-10s
and we cant figure out what the actors said next. faintttt~
after the show, both me and my boyf have to go on a separate way.
the farewell was the saddest part and i almost cried when i board the bus.

well, today is mother's day. bought cake at IMM's secret recipe.
the cake was meant for my mum, my aunt and my grandma.
seeing them happy makes me feel happy too.
we had a little feast at home. i love you all! muackss!

i love you too boyfriend!

2008-05-06T22:57:00.004+08:00

basically i tend not to blog today but due to the level of boredom, i've decided to.
i had a two day off to start of for the week.
but to tell ya the truth, it was the most boring days ever!
i spent the whole day rotting at home.
studied, watching tv, movies on the net, sleeping = boring.
only yesterday that i met boyfriend. even so, i met him at night only. bah!

btw, im shifting house soon, prolly on the 3rd week of May.
and we're going to shift again in about 3-4 mths time.
why must all these shits happen now? when im supposed to take my O levels?
how am i supposed to concentrate when there's myriad of problem coming ahead.
i wish i could run away from all these troubles.
and by now, some of you might know that im someone that choose to run away rather than facing the problems. i just dont know and i dont want to know the consequences. hmmm.

and im missing you out, baby.

2008-05-02T23:35:00.002+08:00

I'm so happy too today, atika!
but it wldnt be a secret as i'm gonna share it here.
firstly, our belt's sales accumulated to be $700+.
so this month pay roll would be approximately 1k.
but! im gonna save half of it for rainy days.
secondly, my boyfriend gets into the home team just like what he was hoping for.
in another 4 more mths, you're gonna be a man baby. (:
but i'm gonna be missing you like i never miss anyone before! sob
thirdly, i'm meeting my boyfriend tmrw after 3 days of being apart!
i miss you so much baby. how to survive when you're going to NS?
im gonna weeeeeepppp like hell all night thinking that you're not by my side.

2008-04-26T19:29:00.003+08:00

in another few hours, we're turning one. yeay. hurray!
just wanna tell you that im so in love with you.
you make me whole each & every single time.
sorry for all the silly arguments we had.
we've been through this far and i wouldnt wanna lose you.
you're there with me even when im at my lowest.
to sum it all up, you're the best that i've ever wished for.
i love you muhd riduan!

2008-04-20T23:15:00.002+08:00

well, today marks a year i've worked in fep. (not a good thing)
back then, i met my boyfriend for the second time. time flies so fast ey?
but sadly, there's some conflicts today. partly my fault. (fyi, not rship problem)
shan't elaborate more on it cause it took me 12983274 minutes to cool down.
im such a cry baby. to sum it all, im a very sensitive person.
thanks to boyfriend for the comforting words.
i wish you were there so that i be in your arms. but its okay.
thanks to Lp for the chocolate. im touched. (:
& sorry for the inappropriate smses; to whom it may be concern.

2008-04-19T02:39:00.002+08:00

been wondering why my hair doesn't want to grow. why eh?
it's just stop at a certain level. haven't been cutting my hair since last year.
prolly there's too many chemical. any solutions how to make it grow?

2008-04-13T20:00:00.005+08:00

woke up at 9.40am today.
as usual, i set the alarm clock at 8.30am but it turns out to be 8.30pm.
how dumb can i be? no wonder my email used to be dumb_bear90@hotmail.com.
it certainly suits me. -_______________________-" bah! it doesnt matter.
so, i quickly bathe and went out of the house approximately, 10.o5am.
the train reached raffles at about 10.45am. i was a bit relieved
with the hope that i could reach to work on time.
while on the train to Orchard, i read Sidney Sheldon's book.
i was busy visualizing the picture of the story till i alighted at Newton. yet again, i was pissed.
reached workplace, 11.16am. 15minutes of my pay has been cut off.

on a happier note, managed to spend my time at work, well.
i practice some maths questions till Liping & Cy came.
and i finished reading the whole book! (:
im so proud of myself & im gonna read my new book now;
The Art of French Kissing by Kristin Harmel.

and im missing you so badly sayang.
1 more week to go. i love you so much!

2008-04-11T01:08:00.003+08:00

i love you, baby.
2 more weeks.

im so getting the river island wallet.
its not the brand that matters but the design.
the design is so so awesome.
cant wait for next pay roll.
i need a new hair colour.
reddish-pinkish brown, perhaps?

2008-04-04T14:40:00.004+08:00

PICTURES, PICTURES!

as you can see, i had a bad hair day. todddlesssss.

2008-04-02T23:54:00.005+08:00

went to work as usual.
woke at 8.15am today. how guai. errr, NOT!
somehow, i was early today.
but didnt manage to take a peep at how exact i came work.
no, i was always early! hmmmp.

was bored at work. studied chem a lil bit.
then aihui came. and she was like sneezing away.
and somehow, the virus attacked me. but but but, only for a while.

went over at wheelock to meet rusydi.
and we immediately went to cash studio.
dont wanna waste a single moment to sing our hearts out.
half an hour later, putri, kakak and abg dani came.
the only person that's left out is atika.
such a waste she didnt came.
i miss watching atika singing away and and crying at the same time.
if she's drunk! hahahha. sorry, jgn marah ye.
it was fun. and as usual, my voice sucks.
sound more like a frog. hua!

went over to Santa Fe at far east plaza.
the milkshake was superb. shared with putri.
how loving! rus and abg dani got themselves a beer, each.
and the funny thing was that abg dani was drunk.
he sang indian song, speak like a chinese/cikopei ( idk how to spell) uncle. etc,
kakak send us home by cab.
abg dani went for a stroll on his own.
and landed at the pavement where people park their motorcycle.

but but most of all, i miss my darling so much.
miss cuddling, hugging with him.
as im typing this, i feel like crying.
how emotional i can get. oh my. okay toodles!

pictures, soon okay people.
i dont think people are reading my post.
yekyekyek. why do i even have to blabber all this shits!

2008-04-01T12:43:00.002+08:00

just got 80 bucks from the sale of our belts in LOUISE.
and more to come by nxt month. $$$$$$
prolly i'll be getting my pay in like 2hrs time. (hopefully. cross finger)
but i cant splurge all of my earnings! hmm.
save up $200, pay phone bill, daily allowance
and the rest i could spend. that wld be like approximately, 200bucks.
minus off the stuff i bought online, left $140 in my pocket.
there's so much to buy/plan this month. oh my.
karaoke with them, brothers's bday, me&bby's 1st year, tuition fees.
brain crackkkkkkkk. just hoping that the money will fall from the sky
just like someone always say. (guess people, guess!)

when you look me in the eye. & tell me that you love me.
everything's alright, when you're right here by my side.
when i hold you in my arms, i know that it's forever.
i just gotta let you know, i never want to let you go.

2008-03-29T15:26:00.002+08:00

hey guys. you need a stylish/simple/cheap/affordable apparel?

do visit, www.shoppinq-addiction.blogspot.com
she's doing a taiwan spree. help her to cap 15 orders.

for a long top cost $14 including shipping and handling fees.
cheap huh? (;

polo tee at $19.95.

2008-03-27T13:16:00.005+08:00

just so you know, i cut my fringe yesterday.
bloody hell. the hairdresser make it thinner.
and also some were short like hell.
it looks freaking ugly/distorted. screw you.

well today is our 11 monthversarry. haha.
thanks for being such a good boyfriend to me.
you adorable son of a gun. (does it sounds rude? sorry.)
i love you so much.

2008-03-22T01:23:00.002+08:00

its 1am in the morning now.
and im not yet asleep.
and why is that so?
cause im blogshopping.
there's so many awesome/cheap/affordable stuff i could find online.
the only thing is that, i haven't got my pay yet.
im left with $25 till sat. how pathetic.

once the pay is transferred, i'll get my hands on those stuff.
awesome. (:

bikinis going at $19.
lingerie going at as low as $12. can you believe that?
yeah yeah yeah. and so much more!

and so, the belts sandy bring in was quite sell-able.
and and she brought in more!
gotta grab them asap okay. $9.90-$10.90 cheap cheap
ask me for detail if you're interested.

2008-03-20T14:05:00.002+08:00

okay. intended to follow atika to her job orientation today.
but guess what, i overslept!
i remember setting my alarm clock at 7.30am.
but after i woke up, i realised that i set it at 7.30pm.
opppps. my bad. atika called at 9am.
and i knew that im not gonna arrive at time.
so im gonna have to pass. >.<

and now, i got no plans.
baby's working today.
so im home for the whole day.

and shit, im gonna grow fatter soon.
cause i took supper ytd. chicken chop some more.
sorry baby. i made you ate again. saye mintak maaf byk-byk.

i need to do sth to my hair. new hair colour, maybe?

2008-03-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

went swimming ytd with the lovely boyf.
was a perfect day to swim.
firstly it was not packed.
secondly, the weather was just fine.
after a tiring/exhausted day,
we took our dinner and head down to the carpark.
i had tons of fun baby. ilysm.

hopefully, next pay roll will hit from what i expected.
gotta buy a lot of stuff. assessment books, bras, face powder. etc etc.

2008-03-14T18:58:00.002+08:00

i feel so sick. body's weak as well.
i was coughing the whole day. dry cough to be exact.
because of the weather i reckon.
all i need the most now is my baby's huggggg.
i miss you so much. cant wait to meet you tmrw!

and to putri, you still owe me pictures!!!

2008-03-09T11:32:00.002+08:00

went out with the pretty boy ytd.
met up late. went off to marina sq, took our dinner.
off to IT show. damn, it was packed like hell.
but there were huge bargains. heh.
and double choc of donut factory = yumyum!
went off to cineileisure to meet atikathi.
they treat us to step up 2. thanks guys!
will treat you guys something in future. (if we have extra $$$$$) promise.
the show was HOT! HOT! HOT!
not only the dance moves but ..... heh.
Robert Hoffman was the actor from She's the Man.
sizzzling. dnt worry baby. you're more hotter!

2008-03-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

yesterday, meet atika and val for blogshop.
lots of stuff to sell away. tops, tank tops, dresses.
do visit http://www.apparel-lexia.blogspot.com.

meet wan at bugis.
bought jeans which i dont need to alter.
alteration=waste money.
went off to marina square for our dinner.
walk all over to suntec city.
its been a long time since i went there.
was fucking big man.
then turuttutu. home.

im sorry sayang. ily.

2008-03-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

its tekken time attack fever!
whoever beats up all 9 characters the fastest, wins!
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yekyekyek; 4mins 02sec by Lili.

2008-03-02T17:16:00.004+08:00

period! pimple outbreak.
gosh, i really hate menses.
the cramps, the "gravity pull", the uncomfortable feeling.
so what if i have a period? that doesnt stops me from going out.

heh. so met bf yesterday.
picked me up and we went to tamp mall.
window shopped, just to kill time.
thought of going to malik's chalet.
but we ended up meeting atikathi.
hang around costa sands chalet.
home sweet home, 3.30am.

i love you so much sweetheart. ♥

2008-02-28T13:29:00.001+08:00

Visit Now. (:

http://www.apparel-lexia.blogspot.com

2008-02-27T12:37:00.004+08:00

meet up with beau ytd.
it was ubber fun. we went to coast walk.
the scenery was superb. romantic for sure.
after hours of spending time together,
then we realized that today was our 10mth.
im so sorry i cant meet you today.
hope you understand. ily.

2008-02-26T00:29:00.003+08:00

why must all this happen? why?
he suffered a lot already.
give him a break please.
this is absurd. really.
it's not some kind of coincidence.
please god, dont condemn him. *on my knees*
he's a very good, pure hearted person.
it hurts me seeing him like this.
i wish i could make you smile
when you're at your lowest.

and so, atika & val meet me at work.
they were like shuffling away like a maniac.

i miss my baby so much.
cant wait to meet you tmrw
and get my shampoo with the dealer! wee.

2008-02-24T13:34:00.002+08:00

its been awhile since i've update.
life's been a bore lately.
but it's okay.

miss him terribly.
been days since i've met him.
3 days to be exact. weikk weikk.

im left with only $10 bucks till pay day.
pay day prolly on the 3rd of March.
how to survive?

2008-02-10T14:31:00.000+08:00

spend my CNY holiday at wan's house.
so it's just us, snacks, one movie after another
and sleep comfortably in his arms.
and so his maggi was nice except for the appearance.
heh. met atikathi after work.
haha. it was fun.

i love you.

2008-02-02T00:08:00.001+08:00

im on cloud nine today.
......

firstly, i spend my day with my beau yesterday.
no amount of words could describe
how much fun i had with you.
i just love sleeping in your arms.
comfortable enough to put me to sleep.
and i'm missing you terribly now.

window-shopped before work.
blamed on my itchy eyes,
always wanted to splurge my money on clothes!
damn. start saving please!
but it's a pretty dress so it's not a waste.

new stocks of bag arrived today.
this batch of bags are really lovely.
worth the money. (:
managed to hit $500 for today's sales.
not bad for a bag shop.
Bern raised my pay. yeayeay.
plus plus will be getting hong bao.

weeeeheeeeeee.

2008-01-27T13:55:00.001+08:00

happy 9mth baby!
you're the best boyfriend i've ever had.
you're there whenever im down.
i enjoyed every moment with you, baby.
every split seconds of my life.

the love of my life; Riduan.

2008-01-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

im ubber bored at work today.
cause there's minimum things for me to do. bah.
talked to my sexy baby most of the time.
other than that, hmm, let me think.....
nothing. seriously nothing.

and so, atika came at 4pm.
cause we had a threesome date today.
went to bugis. instead of sin yi finding clothes,
both me and atika bought something special for our boyf.
wow. i really cant wait for it baby.
im gonna eat you up................ (:

good luck for all the O levels takers for your results tmrw!
prolly gonna try appeal.
if lady luck is not by my side,
i guess i have to retake some of the subjects.
i wanna have a bright future!
not gona stick to this part-time sale assistant job for all of my life.
NO!

baby, i miss you so much. wanna hug you after a tiring day.
wanna cuddle with you.
and whisper in your ear that i love you so so much. muacks!

2008-01-20T13:57:00.000+08:00

"can you smell, what the rock is cooking."

but i had fun with you yesterday, baby.
you make me laugh the whole time.
you're the best!

2008-01-18T20:59:00.000+08:00

there's something wrong with my eye.
one is bigger than the other.
cause one eye has a double eye lid while the other dont.
why why why? boyf also have the same problem.

guess we're meant to be then.

2008-01-15T17:37:00.000+08:00

actually, idk why I've enthusiastically opened a blog.
cause im so-so lazy to update about my pathetic/boring life.
I'll just blog to kill time ey.

yekyekyek. firstly, my long-time-never-see boy-friend, Rusydi turns 18.
the legal age. im so jealous of him. hmm.

secondly, my baby is getting pissed by the rainy season.
he's shirt/pant was soaking wet whenever he wants to fetch me from home.
poor baby. i love you.

thirdly, im ubber bored at work.
cause, there's like so few people here.
less people to serve and less sales for the day.
and more time watching movies at work. (:

that's all for today. internet's being a bitch.

2008-01-11T16:22:00.000+08:00

wow. new blog. heh. after a long while on hiatus. (:
a new year means im gonna be 1 year older.
and that will be, my 18 bday! the legal age.
but that, i've to wait till Oct.

i cant wait to revise my O level.
after a long break. hee.
for now, work my ass off.
tata~

2008-01-09T15:47:00.000+08:00

testing testing pika pika.